December 2009
15 posts
Is the difference between want and need the...
oh so good
so blurry. so fun. so painful. so disappointing. so revealing. so raw. so funny. so satisfying. so scary. so wrong. so right.
now my life's great and his isn't and I'm happy...
I'd rather hear you disappoint me than not say a...
My satisfaction with my life is in everything I want but can’t have. and other things too. i’m happy when I’m unhappy because life is a story.
my plans for today are to watch zombieland for free for school credit(.05) and then drink 40s and 4locos with my friendz. hopefully at the reservoir. the reservoir is like my fave place to party so i hope i can convince them.
So this...
I feel like a person today
deez like real thoughts
at school today, I threw my cig butt in the can and on the can I saw a fortune that said “something unexpected will soon happen that will make like more exciting” or something along those lines. i took this to heart since that’s what I’ve been looking for. so i’m waiting now. I guess. i guess i’ll just do what I do and let something exciting happen to me....
Wellzwellz i hung out with kieth and and eq and alby at southtowne playing pool and then we got kirk and sushi. then kirk and I got dropped off at south. walked to dmart, bought a 40. drank it in turtles and on 29th. had a romantic dinner with kirk at turtles…kreeped on eden at capella(s?). then chilled with eden. gott drunker. they walked me home. It was lotz and lotz of fun.
need somebody
I feel unwanted. when I know i’m not. I feel so many things that I don’t feel a thing. Like how high amounts of anything just desensitizes me. I’m so emotional that i’m a rock.
I just don’t know what to do. I’m letting my assumptions get the best of me.
if there was a concentrated form of sexy...
You, child!
there're 4 kinds of kids at my school.
1. not cool enough for school.
2. too cool for school.
3. parolees.
4. mothers.
Last night was so good I don't even want to talk...
I’ll just pick a few things that happened.
After returning to albertson’s from downtown to steal sake. I learned about the tragic death of an old classmate of mine. I felt sick. then started drinking. rest in peace jeanette.
I walked with kirk and cassidy around cheese park drinking whiskey. I’ve wanted to do that for about a year and a half.
I remember sitting on the couch...
I don't need to tell you it's been cold.
albee’s being the mob about the 10 i owe him so ima be broked this weekend. no booze for nolo. I’m just gonna buy a half gal and be drunk all the time for a few days. when I have money! fuck!
The Nikas house was consumed by flame sometime in the last couple days. I can’t even imagine. childhood home burnt. i can’t wait to talk to some nikass to learn the deats.
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this is a reminder to myself.
Before I spend all my money from xmas on booze and cigarettes….buy some new clothes.
there are too many maybes in my life.
Instead of thinking about doing something. I’m just going to do it. like whatever. it’s no big deal. and then it might not work out. and it’ll end. and that’ll be fine. and if it works out. that’s good. I’m so bored of living the exact same way I have been for like a year now even though some shit has changed…i need something.
I’m really feeling...
“I CARE ABOUT THE DUCKS’ WIN. ha.”